Hey Gorgeous Souls,
The way we do one thing in life is often the way we unconsciously do things in all areas of life
As I stood in front of the mirror today. I admired my pre menstrual rounded stomach, my waist and hips.
I have come to really love & honour my body and all it does for me.
My periods are sacred. Menstrual blood is the most powerful element on earth. It could have supported the creation of a child & also contains stem cells that can heal many illnesses.
My womb a powerful multi dimensional portal. It holds the geometric codes to access all life. The doorways multiverse realms within.
I realised that in the past I wouldn’t be satisfied with my reflection.
I held a mindset that it was only worthy some time out in the future when I’d shrunk it back to a more desirable size
I’d grown up bullied by family and siblings as fat.
Which translated to how I must be unworthy of love. That love & kindness was conditional & that everything was outside of me including the perceived love, validation, happiness & I sought.
It was something that would ‘happen’ in future.
Over years of distorted thinking & disordered eating I could often morph into the magic U.K. size 8. At times even a size 6/8. Where I revelled in curves & xylophone ribs.
Yet although the wave of admiration of my shrinking body made me feel more accepted in a dysmorphic world where everyone else was being influenced by the similar poison & circus mirrors
Love for my self & this deep satisfaction still alluded me. It was still something off on the distant. A time when I would relax. Like it was bookmarked in my psyche as a finish line.
It was only through a choice to quit this way of thinking, treating myself & existing. That I saw it was a bleed into other areas too.
In my career once I’d reached the promotion it didn’t satisfy me. I didn’t pause & acknowledge the enormity of my successes. I celebrated but by that point I was onto the next goal.
When I bought my first flat in London at 23 within weeks I was looking at the 4 bed town house as my next target.
Yet many years ago I broke this spell.
In doing so I pulled down the whole fantasy land in my mind & burnt the scripts of distorted thinking. I realise the programming ran deep through ancestral lines, childhood, magazines, the banking industry.
At work as soon as a project was complete you were already onto the next.
It’s the ‘never enough’ syndrome. It’s endemic, silent & insidious.
It’s also rife in the healing & coaching industry.
I see the patterns, the language, the energy forms. I also see the eating disorders, spiritual bondage & parasites underneath what’s being presented.
How can you just ‘Be’ today?
How can you express love for yourself, your body, your business & all that you ARE TODAY?
NOT what you are working on or getting the dopamine hit from the next PayPal alert to a sale.
NOT where you desire to be in future when xyz has manifested. I mean NOW. TODAY!
Self hatred & discontent just fuels the world with more poison. Keeping yourself & those in the collective consciousness trapped by matrix belief programs!
YOU are everything you need to be & more on this moment NOW!
Trust & release yourself from the programming knowing that freedom brings happiness, contentment easily!
We have been told lies.
Happiness doesn’t come from the number on the scales, a size label, the bank balance, the next PayPal sale or how many people sign your offer. None of this is true freedom either.
It comes through LOVE & a new path out of the matrix programming that is the unseen poison we are being called to purge from in 2021!
Would love to hear your comments!
Allera xx
